May 16, 2009

I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of Him

1 Samuel 1:27

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Birth Story

Caleb Benjamen’s birth story May 4, 2009

Sunday (5-3) morning I started having contractions that came every 2-3 minutes that lasted about 2 hours. But they ended up stopping even though they were pretty intense. They even stopped enough for me to go back to sleep around 7:30 am. When I woke up, I still had a few occasional painful contractions through out the day, but never ones that were very consistent. Most of them felt like the ones that I had been having the past 4 weeks or so. Annoying and really, really tight. After we put Luke to bed close to 9pm, I started to have them again. Just like I had that morning. Except this time they were about every 3-8 minutes apart, and not quite as painful as before. So, I took an Ambien and went to bed trying to get some sleep. We didn’t want to call the doctor only to have them tell us to come back into to the hospital and then send us home. So we waited to see if anything else would happen.

I woke up again early Monday (5-4) morning, around 5:30am, (almost the exact same time as Sunday morning) and started having them more frequently, around 2-3 minutes, and definitely more painful. They lasted about an hour and half, and I was able to go back to sleep…again. When I woke up in the morning around 8am, I woke up to a pretty intense one, but they weren’t coming as frequently as 2-3 minutes, they were more like 5-9 minutes. So, I just started to go about my day, took a shower, and then decided to put a call into the doctor just so that they knew what was going on. They told me that they wanted me to come into the office to be checked; just to “make sure” those contractions didn’t do much since I had been dilated 1-2cm for the past 4 weeks.

So, I called my sister in law to see if she would watch Luke for me while I ran up to the doctor’s office. And Brandon offered to come, but asked if I could handle driving up there myself since he had some work he needed to get done, and I told him I could and that it probably was nothing. I just wanted to make sure all was okay. My mom, mother in law and sister all were either working or had school, so none of them were available to watch Luke or even go with me. So off to the hospital I went. All by myself.

I got there, checked in and had to wait for probably 40 minutes before going back. All while my contractions were picking up again and coming consistently. Maybe 5 minutes apart or so. They called me back and my doctor checked me. She said I was 3 cm! I couldn’t believe it. She then asked me “how do you feel about having a baby today?” To which I replied, “really?” She said she would give me the option of either being admitted or going home and seeing “what would happen as the day progressed” I told her I would rather just be admitted. So, she called over to the hospital and told her I was on my way and off to Labor and Delivery I went around noon. All by myself!

I called Brandon and everyone else in the family to let them know what was going on. Brandon had to finish up a few things with work and my mom and sister headed straight over with Luke. (They both left work and school and picked Luke up from Kayla’s). They told me initially I would have my csection between 4-6pm that day, but it kept getting bumped back as the day went on because of other ladies who were more of an emergency than I was. When I got there they gave me Nubain for the pain, and then I got my epidural around 2:30pm. I finally felt so comfortable after a month of having constant contractions.

The rest of our family finally arrived and we waited around until they said it was time. They finally took me back to have the section around 8:15pm or so and Caleb Benjamen was born at 8:51 pm. 7lbs 7oz, 21 inches, and a head circumference of 13.5 inches! He was a big boy and Dr. Gaudreau said that because he was so big, he more than likely wouldn’t have fit and that is why my contractions never dilated me more than they did. He couldn’t push as hard on my cervix as he needed to. And after lying there all day in the hospital, I had only made it to 4 cm when they took me back. So, I’m glad I had opted for a csection anyway.

We stayed in the hospital until Friday (5-8) afternoon and came home around 2:30pm. He lost some weight at the hospital, he went from 7.7 to 7.4 to 6.13 back up to 7.1, which was great news, he was already gaining weight when we left. He is doing great at nursing and wants to eat about every 2-3 hours. Round the clock. We feel so blessed to have this little boy here with us and healthy. Our family is feeling complete.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

He's Here!

Caleb Benjamen
May 4, 2009
8:51 pm
7 lbs 7oz 21 inches

Our New Sweet Baby Boy


Tuesday, April 28, 2009

37 weeks....

I had another appointment this afternoon at 37 weeks 3 days. Baby is growing and sounded great. My doctor said that they will probably have to do a csection anyway to get this baby out of me! So, I guess we are still waiting for May 12. I'm not too sure he is going to be coming sooner than that. So, exactly 2 weeks from today we will be holding our little boy for sure.

I am feeling ready. Physically, emotionally....just ready. I'm tired of being tired (have I ever mentioned that before??), tired of the contractions that aren't doing anything, tired of people I don't know constantly making comments about the belly (A BIG thank you goes to the lady at McDonald's today who stated, and I quote" WHOAAAAAAAA lady! You are BIG!!" that is always what you want to hear), tired of being so stinkin' grumpy all the time.

I just don't feel like myself. My doctor said that even though we want this baby out so bad.....a newborn isn't all it's cracked up to be. (She just had a baby around the same time my sweet little nephew was born, so I think she is still going on few hours of sleep...). But I don't care about all that newborn stuff.

I can't wait to get up and see his sweet face and hold his sweet little body. And just smell him.....well the good smells if you know what I mean. I'm ready. We're ready. He's not. *sigh*

So we wait. Knowing God's timing doesn't necessarily have to be our own. This pregnancy has taught me a lot about being faithful and trusting. (Not that I had a hard time before with it....but God has opened my eyes to how much more I need to just lean on him)

Funny that that name we have had picked out for him means just that..."faithful"

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Baby Boy's room

Looks like we may be just about done with Peanut's room. Luke said we were.....
We got his new crib in, and things are coming together. I've finally hung a few things on the walls...

and all the little diapers are in place and ready for that sweet baby bottom!
Some of his clothes are now hanging in that huge closet, which makes his clothes seem even littler than what they are! (but...they are really really little....)

Now, if he'd only get here! A little less than 3 weeks now! We are getting very anxious!

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Eventful week

34 weeks 6 days till now has been very eventful. With 4 trips to Labor and Delivery and one regular OB appointment, this peanut has kept us on our toes. We know he is doing well, is healthy and strong (as he HATES to have the contraction moniter sitting on top of him...he has literally almost kicked it off every time) and definetly has his own timing for when he will make his debut into this world. :)

My 36 week appointment went well yesterday. She checked me again, (for the 5th! time this week) and has said their hasn't been any change in my cervix. I am still a loose 1cm, 75% effaced, and at 0 station. Which is good of course, because we didn't want this baby to come and have to be automatically admitted to the NICU because he was under 36 weeks. But at the same time, it's getting really difficult to be having contractions all day long, every day, and know they are just not sufficient enough to make anything happen. *sigh*

I just feel ready physically and emotionally. I want to be able to get up in the middle of the night and hold this sweet stubborn boy instead of make my drowsy, dizzy way to the bathroom 3+ times. I want to see Luke hold his baby brother instead of kissing my belly and hugging my belly button. I want to see Brandon hold both his boys and love on them. I am soooo ready to be a mommy to two.

Like my doctor said yesterday, good news is, is that this pregnancy MUST end. It's just whether it's going to be this week, next week, or that final 3rd week on my scheduled day. She said she doesn't think I will make it to May 12, but the other doctor in her practice didn't think I would make it to my appointment yesterday! It's just a waiting game now. :)

At the appointment yesterday, she was taking measurements of my belly and listening to the heartbeat when Luke shouted, "no no no no Guke's baby!!" and lifted up his shirt. So my doctor went over and pretended to measure his "baby" and put the doppler and gel on his "baby" to listen to it. He just thought that was the coolest thing. So that made him feel important. It was hilarious though.

so, this baby will be here, regardless, in 3 weeks. Which really....isn't that far away. We just hope these contractions that aren't making me make any progress actually stop...or slow down enough that I don't feel so tired!

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Just so tired....

I am just to the point of exhaustion most days. Just worn out and tired. It's hard to really do much around the house anymore. I'm just soooo tired of being sooooo tired. I can't sleep well at night, Brandon has officially moved from our bed to the couch, just so he can get a decent nights rest, and I can well, not worry about waking him up with every move I make. I probably am getting up at least 3 times a night to go to the bathroom, and my hips are hurting from sleeping only on my sides. I'm just so done. I am wanting so bad to enjoy this time, especially since we are now officially under the 5 week mark, but I just want to feel half way normal. I know that when this baby comes, I will be getting up to take care of him in the middle of the night too, but at least I will get to see my sweet baby's face instead of the toilet. That's a lot more rewarding! heehee.

I know it sounds like I am complaining, and to my husband I apologize for that, because I have done it a lot lately. But waiting for baby number 2 to make his debut is so much different than waiting for baby number 1 to make his. We know what to expect this time around, we know what middle of the night feedings entail, we know about the diaper changes, the laundry, and the new sweet baby smell. We cannot wait to finally have him HERE with us....enjoying him for all he is, and watching our first born interact with his brother. As much as I know he is safe and sound inside of me right now, feeling his sweet movements, and having him all to myself, I am soooo ready for the next phase.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

34 week appt

I had my 34 week appointment today...and everything is looking great. I had been having some pretty intense contractions this week. Sunday evening I had them about every 7-9 minutes for about an hour and half, but they ended up slowing down, so I didn't put a call into my doctor. But today when I told her about them, she wanted to do our first internal exam as well as a Fetal Fibronectin Test.

I am not dialated and the cervix looks good. So that is great news. And the results of the FFN test came back negative. So that means more than likely this little peanut will not be here within the next 2 weeks. (she said that test is about 98% accurate). Which is good because in 2 weeks, I won't quite be 36 weeks yet, so it makes me feel better to know he won't be here before then, and more than likely won't have a NICU stay. I have been so worried this time around, especially with Luke coming at 36 weeks and having as many contractions as early as I have, that he would be here, like, NOW. But God is good and I know he is ultimately in control of this situation. Just as He had His hand in Luke's birth.

So we are still playing the waiting game. And we are getting very eager to hold this new little man in our arms very soon.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Here are some more!

A special, special thank you goes to Jeremy Kinman who took our pictures. He is my Aunt's brother-in-law and says he only does this as a hobby, but he could definetly do it for more!! Thank you Jeremy! We love them.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Maternity Photo preview.......

Many more to come......soon!

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

why oh why

Why is it so hard to name this baby??? We have exactly 7 weeks from today until this peanut will be here.....and we can't just settle on a name. We have one. And it's more than likely the one we will probably use, but it's just still so hard to call him that. But we also have a couple more we like, but can't settle on middle names for them. I don't know why I am stressing out about this. I know he will have a name. He has to. We can't just call him baby forever. Well, I guess we could if he would have been a girl, there was that girl in Dirty Dancing that everyone called Baby, right??

I don't know. It's like I don't feel as connected to this peanut as much as I did with Luke. Not because I don't love him or anything. I just don't's weird. I guess Luke just takes up too much of my time, thoughts, and energy, that this poor little man only gets the leftovers. And at this point, there really is much leftover.

I am so ready for him to be here. 7 weeks seems like a really long time. But I know it's really not. Because he could even be here before then....which sounds crazy. Which is probably why I am stressing so much about his name.

I'm sorry peanut. We love you. I promise you will have a name. And it will suit you. It just may not happen until the day we meet you.

Friday, March 20, 2009

32 week appt

I had my 32 week appt and Peanut is doing well. My belly measured in at 30 cm...which is an increase of 3cm in just 2 weeks! Which is good because now I am only about a week and half to 2 weeks behind as opposed to a whole month. His heartbeat sounded good and everything looks great.

I have been having some pretty intense pubic bone pain. (is that tmi??) and my doctor said it's because I have Pubic Systemasis Disfuntion. I don't know if I spelled that right. Basically it just means that my pubic bone hurts really bad. But it's really very common and the only cure for it is birth. great. That is at least 5-7 weeks away! So until then I have to start physical therapy and wear one of those pregnancy support bands to help ease the pain. Because really, it is pretty intense at times. Like I can't even walk or get up from where I am sitting. So at least I know why now. Anyone have any experience with this?? Just wondering how you handled it and if it really went away after you had your baby.

Also all the Braxton Hicks contractions I have been experiencing are normal. But she did say that I need to time them when I am resting because I will have to call her if I have more than 4-6 in a hour at rest. Which I haven't done before, but I still definetly have them when I am sitting with my feet up. I am just so nervous this little one is going to make an early experience that I think I am noticing them more and more.

So, other than that. Things are going well and we are still just playing the waiting game for when he gets here.

And, this may sound crazy, because we have already ordered a crib, set it up, and put his bedding in it, but we are going to be ordering a different one! HA! We found on we liked better that actually goes with his other furniture in his room much better. And we figured since he will have this furniture for a while, we might as well be happy with it. So....hopefully it will come in on time!

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Rewind Part 3

It's been awhile since I have blogged about the first parts of this pregnancy. So, here is another one so that we don't forget. Read the first 2 here

Rewind Part 1
Rewind Part 2

Even though we couldn't find a shirt anywhere in our neck of the woods that had anything remotely to do with Luke being a big brother, we went to plan B. When we were pregnant with Luke we had an excuse to come over and see our family because we found out the night before Valentine's Day and brought them all Valentine's Day cards. But this time was different. We had no special reason to just show up at their houses at like 7pm.

So, we called Brandon's parents and said we were dropping a kid off from Brandon's soccer practice at a house near by and thought we'd stop in to visit for a minute. (He coached soccer at that time). So they really didn't think anything of it. Well, we walked in and of course all their attention went straight to Luke, which always happens with all his grandparents. and Brandon, being his witty, funny self, decided to make hints the whole time to see how long it would take for them to pick up on it. So, as he was fixing Luke a drink he said something like, "Wow mom, your new fridge would hold a lot of BREAST milk in that door right there." To which his mom replied, "well, I guess it would if you needed it to." NOTHING. He acted like he was looking at their new microwave and opened the door and said, "wow, you could heat up a lot of bottles or baby food in their at one time," to which his mom replied, "well, yeah, you could." NOTHING. Luke kept their entire attention the whole time. Brandon's dad talked about his foot and how he needed to take it easy, and Brandon said something like, "yeah, Sarah might need to too." NOTHING.

That went on for literally 30 minutes before Brandon's mom said, "wait, why would you want to store breast milk in my fridge" (or something to that effect). Smiles ensued, and they knew. I couldn't help but laugh out loud the whole time because it was so obvious what Brandon was saying, they just never got it. It was hilarious.

After that, we headed over to my mom's and used the same excuse as we did with the inlaws, except this time it was closer to 8pm. So we showed up and my mom did the exact same thing with Luke. Scooped him up and it was all about him. So Brandon went to work on letting the cat out of the bag, saying pretty much all the same things he said to his mom and dad. It took my mom and sister about 20 minutes to get it. And then they didn't believe us! My sister ran upstairs, grabbed a pregnancy test, and made me take it. To which of course there were 2 big lines. It was so funny. Mom pulled out a book she had been saving for Luke about a big brother and how his parents brought home a new baby. And the big brother's name in the story was Luke. She dated it and wrote a little message in it. It was too cute.

So, needless to say, even though we didn't get to tell them exactly how we wanted too, it was probably the funniest thing I have ever seen watching and listening to my husband spill the beans and both sets of grandparents not get it for a loooooooonnnnnggggg time. heehee

Thursday, March 5, 2009

More Sneak Peaks

We are getting so close to being done with his room!! I can't believe we are going to fill this room with a little bundle in just two months. It's crazy. We are so excited to meet you little man....and your big brother is so excited to kiss you. We love you peanut!

Wednesday, March 4, 2009


I had another appointment today. And things continue on going well. Dr. G said that his ultrasound did come out very well and that he is actually measuring a week or 2 ahead! I gained 3 lbs since 2 week ago and his heartbeat was in the 150's. My belly is also growing....27 cm! That is good news. Means baby is growing and doing great in there.

I did remind her of those really intense contractions I had on 2 different nights...and she said that I shouldn't feel them like that. And if hydrating myself, and taking it easy) Which she said I absolutely have to do now and not pick Luke up as much as I do :( ....) doesn't work and I have another round of them before my next appt in 2 weeks, then she will probably want to see me and check me to make sure nothing is going on. Scary a little, because even though Luke was about 4 weeks early, I don't want this baby to come any earlier than that.

So that is all the news for now. We just continue to play the waiting game!

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

29 weeks!

Well, I have made it to 29 weeks. Feels good to know that in exactly 10 weeks from today we will definetly have met this little man. I am feeling good, except for a few feelings of a bruised belly from this kid kicking me so hard from the inside. I swear he drags his entire heel across the length of my entire belly. Luke never ever kicked as hard as this one does, and I always felt him more up in my ribs, where this one I sometimes feel there, but it's usually always on the my far right side of my belly almost all the way towards my back. It's crazy how far back I can feel him move. My belly button is pretty much gone....and I really don't know if it will ever come back again. It is so stretched that it's hard to believe that this belly is going to have to stretch even more in 10 weeks.

I have another doctor's appointment tomorrow. I like when you start having them closer makes the time go by faster and you get to hear his heartbeat more often.

I'll let you all know how it goes!

Friday, February 20, 2009

He's a little bigger than a peanut now...

Our ultrasound this morning went great. Peanut is measuring right on track for 28 weeks. And is about 2lbs 10 oz. Apparently I am just measuring small....why? I'm not 100% sure yet. I won't see my doctor until a week from next Wednesday to find out for sure. But the ultrasound tech and the doctor on call there said he measured fine and so did everything else. As in the fluid around him and the placenta. So that is all great news!

Luke enjoyed seeing "baby" too and got excited when his pictures came up on the big screen he could see. If only he knew that this "baby" was actually going to be coming out to stay around....he might think differently. :) But it's still neat to see him getting excited to go to the baby appointments.

If this baby comes around 36 weeks like Luke did, he could be here in 8 weeks! YES...2 months or less. If not, it could be up to 11 weeks till we meet him. We are getting so excited to finally hold him in our arms!
Here is a sneak peak of his bedroom...
We aren't quite done with it yet. But hopefully it will be completely done very soon.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

28 week appt

I had my 28 week appt today. And it went well. Gained 2 lbs. Which is no fun to see those numbers on that scale just keep going up and up and up..... Baby is good. We heard his heartbeat, but the thing that caught me off guard is that I am measuring a month behind. so at 27 weeks 4 days I am measuring 24 weeks. (my doctor said she could fudge and maybe say 26...but I told her not to fudge....even though i wish i was bigger...only because it makes me worried)

so, because I am measuring a month behind, she wanted me to go in for an ultrasound to check up on this little peanut. She said she isn't worried by any means and that a smaller measurment can happen, but to just ease my mind and be safe to have an ultrasound done. and seriously, who would turn down an ultrasound?? we get to see him again! So we go on Friday at 9am to check up on him...and see why in the world I am measuring the way I am. Good thoughts and prayers would be appreciated to ease my mind that he is okay. Dr. G said that everything else looks good and he was measuring right on at my 20 week scan (even though i was almost 18 weeks) so that is good news.

Other than that, I passed my 3 hour glucose test! It was a long and very tiring day, not to mention how nasty that orange drink tastes...but I passed. and so it was all worth it to make sure he is doing fine.

I will keep you posted on the results of the ultrasound...stay tuned for Friday!

Friday, February 13, 2009

third trimester!

I have officially made it. The last trimester. Man that is a good feeling. :) I am already getting tired much easier than before...and have noticed that the belly seems to get in the way quite often. Poor Luke has had to figure out a new way to sit on my lap when reading our books now. I have been having several braxton hicks contractions lately, and some of them last night were a little bit painful. Like I could feel them in my was either that, or my back just hurt. It's hard to tell.

I took my Glucose Test on Wednesday and failed with flying colors once again. My score was 145 and it needs to be below 140. So, on Monday morning I am going back to take the 3 hour glucose test. Hopefully I will pass that one, and won't have gestational diabetes this time around. When I was pregnant with Luke, I failed the one hour test (with a score of 149) and barely squeaked by my 3 hour test (one of my numbers was pretty high, and for you to be considered having GD, you have to fail 2 or more of the blood draws). I am just trying to stay optimistic about it. If I have it....I have it. And I would rather know so that this little peanut is healthy when he makes his entrance into this world.

I am also a tad bit anemic this time around too. My score was 11.2 (needs to be above 12.5) and that was pretty much the same with Luke too (11.4). So that didn't suprise me at all. We will see if Dr. G wants me to take an iron supplement when I see her next Wednesday. She didn't have me take one with Luke, so we will see what she says this time around.

On this day 3 years ago, we found out we were going to be parents. Why does 3 years sound like such a short time, but feel like an eternity??? heehee. I don't know, must be chasing after our 2 year old...who is technically almost 2.5! When did THAT happen?

So, we are still trucking along with this little peanut. I start seeing the doctor ever 2 weeks now, so that should make the time go by a little faster, and March is going to be a busy month with 2 showers I am helping with, my birthday, my sister's birthday, and maybe a little get away with just Brandon and Luke. I'm excited!

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

another appointment 25 weeks 3 days

I had another appointment yesterday and it went well. My doctor said baby is going really good and felt like he was head down. Which I am sure will change as time goes on as he is flipping and flopping as I type.

We also were able to schedule the remainder of my appointments...which seems so unreal that it is getting so close now. So I am starting to go every 2 weeks now, because she wants to see me close to 28 weeks...which is really only a few weeks away...and then after 28 weeks you go every 2 weeks until 36 weeks when you start going every week.

We also scheduled my csection! Tuesday May 12 at 8am. We are so excited. I will be 39 weeks 3 days then, so hopefully I can make it that far. But she said regardless of when this little peanut decides to come they will do a csection anyway. That made me feel better. It has been a hard decision on whether or not I should opt for a csection this time around but have finally weighed all my options and decided on a planned csection. My doctor and the nurses have said it probably would be a good idea to do it too. So that made me feel even better with the decision.

His heartbeat was 145, and she measured my belly at only 22 cm! which shocked me...but she said it is okay because of my size. On top of that though, I gained 8lbs in one month! Which seems like a lot to me...but I have really only gained 8.8lbs this whole pregnancy so far because I lost 6 lbs in the beginning.

So overall it was a great appt and Luke really enjoyed hearing "baby" over the doppler and even wanted to help wipe the gunk off my belly when my doctor was done. He seems to really be interested in what's going on with me and this baby. But we will see what he thinks once this little man actually gets here. I bet he loves it.

Friday, January 30, 2009


So I don't know how early you can feel your peanut's hiccups...

But I am pretty sure I am feeling them right now!!

I think I might have felt them on Tuesday too, but now that I am feeling that same feeling again...I think that has to be it!

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

24 weeks and counting

I am officially in my 25th week! whoo hoo! These pictures were taken on Saturday when I turned 24 weeks. It feels good to be at this just means that in 3 months or less this little man will be here. I cannot wait to hold him and see him, and just snuggle him. Soak in all that baby cuteness and good's going to be soon!


here is my and my grandpa (peanut and Luke's great grandpa) getting a belly shot together.

and then he asked my mom to take a "serious" picture of him, ya know, without him sticking his gut out. He was seriously making me laugh so hard!

And then we needed one with my stepdad...Papaw Jeff!

And then Luke had to get in on the action. But apparently he can only kiss the baby when my shirt is pulled up. He does it everytime.
We ordered peanut's crib and dresser last night from JC Penny and they should be in very soon. Which makes me so excited because I am feeling like I need to get everything done! I never really had that "nesting" experience with Luke. Maybe it's because I felt like I had all the time to get it done (even though he came 4 weeks early) because it was just me and Brandon. Now I feel like I am running out of time!
We need to move Luke's room upstairs with the baby, get the baby furniture, set it up, decorate their rooms, move the closets around, move the office to the other bedroom since Luke is taking the office upstairs, and then make Luke's old room into the playroom, and make the dining room what it was intended to be! AGH! stresses me out to think about it all. I know it will all come together, and that it really won't take a lot of time, especially because I will have Brandon to help me and my mom and sister have offered to help too. It's just knowing that I won't be able to do as much as I want since my belly just keeps getting bigger and bigger and bigger.....and I get tired quicker already! It will all come together. right????

Sunday, January 25, 2009

oh my goodness....all that cuteness!

Do you EVEN see what those sweet little boy clothes say?!?!?!?! YES....LITTLE PEANUT! I about died when we walked into Gymboree at Greenwood a few weeks ago and saw these clothes.
I, unfortunately...and well, fortunately, did not walk out with them that day. Just the body suite itself was 15 bucks! But, they sure were darn cute. And I am almost certain our little peanut would look absolutely adorable in all of it when he gets here in just 3 short months!

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Rewind Part 2

Rewind Part 1


after Brandon got home and we packed up in the car to head to the parents, we were trying to come up with creative ways to tell them. With Luke it was easy....we found out the day before Valentine's Day and just got them cards from their new grandbaby..and of course once they opened those cards, they knew right away. But this time we had no holiday to fall back on....and no creative juices flowing to tell them in a special way....

soooooooooooo.....we thought, what if we just swung by Target real quick and got a "big brother" shirt for Luke and put it on him real quick to see if they noticed it when we went in. Well, did you know that Target doesn't have those shirts? And neither does Kohls.....or JC Penny's.....or Children's Place......or Old Navy. NONE of those stores had one stinkin shirt that said "big brother!" this time it was already getting close to 8pm so Brandon suggested just throwing in the towel and going home. But there was no way I was not telling my mom or sister that night because I was going to be with them the whole day the next day! I couldn't keep it in any longer!

Saturday, January 17, 2009

went back in the same week!

After I had my appointment that week, I began to feel this little man's movements slow down a bit on Thursday. I tried not to think much of it especially since I was almost only 22 weeks. But, as the day wore on, and I didn't feel him like I normally did, I got a tad bit worried. I waited until Friday morning when I had to call for some results from some tests anyway and asked them about the movements. They told me if I wanted to I could go right on in and they would listen for the heartbeat. So, in I went! Better to be reassured right? Especially since the weekend was coming up, I didn't want to have to wonder all weekend long.

It's not that I didn't feel him at all. I just didn't feel him like normal. He is a crazy guy in there...and his movements have definetly gotten strong and more consistent, especially since when I first really felt him at 16 weeks. So, I just wondered why he had slowed down so much.

When I went in, he checked my stomach, and said everything felt really good. And then as soon as he put the dopper on my tummy, there it was! His little heartbeat. So then I felt stupid. BUT at least I could ease my mind about his movements. Apparently, the doctor said at least, I am feeling him like a "normal" 21 week person would feel him. And that is rare for me to have felt him consistently for so long. But I think the doctor was just trying to come up with some reason why he slowed down so much for that 24 hour period. So who really knows. All I know is his little heartbeat sounded great! and reassuring!!!

And of course he has more than made up for those 24 hours I didn't feel him that much. Now, he is back to his normal routine of rolling and wiggling in the belly. I love it though. It reminds me he is okay and I love feeling him.

oh, and Luke was very well behaved at the doctors office. He sat there in the chair and listened to the heartbeat and was so good. I was so proud. At least now I know I can take him to the routine appointments by myself without having to worry about how he will do. So that's nice!

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

5 month check up

I had my 21 week appt today. And things went very well. Baby is doing well and measuring good for 21 weeks. Actually, my belly measured at 20 cm today, which is fine by me! I always measured a week behind with Luke too so that is normal for me. She went to listen to his heartbeat, and couldn't get a clear sound of it because he is moving like crazy!! He kicked her several times and made her lose her spot to hear him. Crazy kid!!! She didn't tell me the heartbeat this time, but I can find out next month I think. All the other symptoms I am feeling are normal right now, which is always reassuring to hear.

I am pretty sure she is leaning towards the direction of a csection with this one. Which is fine by me, my recovery with Luke was pretty difficult and I still experience a few side effects from his delivery. Their is one main thing she is worried about for me with another vaginal delivery, one that is a little TMI for me to mention on here! ( I know me? yep...some things can be a little embarrassing) and it's definetly something I never want to experience in my life if I can help it, so I am totally leaning towards a csection too. And I'm sure if I told her that is what I wanted she woudn't even think twice about doing one. But I didn't tell her I was 100% on that yet, (even though I think I am) so we are just going to moniter the growth of this little peanut as the D Day draws closer. My guess is he will be over 6lbs, which, in my case, would probably give a definete reason to do a csection. (Luke weighed 5lbs 14 oz at 36w 2d)

She told me at my next appt on Feb 3, I need to schedule the remainder of my appointments! Can you believe that??? The remainder of my appointments! We can't believe we are only 4 months away from meeting this little man. It seems surreal that we are having another baby....and there are moments we think...OMG, we are going to have 2 kids! count them....2!! But it's great and we are so looking forward to holding this little guy in our arms. and never putting him down....people will have to knock us to the ground to hold him. Just kidding....but seriously.....

We by no means want to rush this time with Luke. He is our first. He made us parents. and this time we have with him now we know we will never ever get back...and that's a little sad to think about it. But then we think about all the fun times these 2 brothers are going to have together, and we just smile and get excited for what God has in store for us in the next few months....and years! It will be a great time.

Friday, January 2, 2009

Rewind Part 1

Since I started this blog a little late into my pregnancy, I thought I would take the time to do a few rewinds so that I can remember some days in the beginning. So, really, don't feel like you have to read these, but I want to try and capture it before it fades from my already REALLY forgetful mind.

September 11, 2008

My cycles had been really long this time around off the pill and by the time September 11 came around it was already day 34 of my cycle. Aunt Flo had not made her appearance yet in the morning, but I honestly did not think that that was the month it happened because on day 28 (the Friday before) I took a pregnancy test ( 5-6 days sooner..we were eager to know!) and had gotten a Big Fat Negative on a pretty expensive test. So I thought our chances were pretty slim by the time day 34 came around...I just thought, I'll run to the dollar store and get a few and just try them. So, I packed Luke up, ran by a friends house to drop something off, and then off to the dollar store. Grabbed 2 of them and went straight home. By this time it was around 11 am. I got home, and was going to wait until Brandon got home to take it....but decided..."hey, I already got one negative, what's the harm of taking another one, getting a negative, just to be sure" So, I took it. Layed it on the sink and walked away. Played with Luke for a few minutes, almost forgot about taking it....walked in there. and......

2. lines.


double check it.


2 lines. this thing sure?? read the directions...did I take it right? shake it a little.

Oh. My. Gosh.

I'm pregnant.

and then I seriously gasped a happy gasp. Luke looked at me like I was silly. I then tried to calm my nerves to make a call in to my husband. I wanted him to know right then. Because I immediately felt bad that he wasn't there when I took it! I so thought it was going to be a negative that I wasn't prepared for the great result!

I called Brandon and said, " you think you could come home for a little bit. PUH LEASE...I really need you to come home." He immediately asked if something was wrong with Luke. I said, "Oh no...he is GREAT. But I need you home. Right. Now." He then said to me after a long dramatic pause, "Sarah, are you pregnant?????" to which I tried to hide because who wants to tell their hubby over the phone they are pregnant?!? He saw right through it and through my meek and little "um yeah" he started laughing and yelling...and was so excited. That made me feel better, but he still didn't come home! Oh well, it was still fun to tell him. Even if it was over the phone.

My sister then called me and asked me to go out to lunch and Brandon had told me to wait to tell our family because we would do it in person to which I agreed. But do you know how hard it is to have taken a test 30 minutes before my sister showed up and then sit across from her at Culver's and NOT say a stinkin word to her about how our lives had just changed 30 minutes prior to that?!?!!? SOOOOOO hard.

After I made it through lunch with mums the word. We went back home, Luke went down for his nap and we waited till Daddy got home. When he got home (late I might add! geesh!) we met him in the drive way and we just smiled at each other. Like we still couldn't believe it happened. I then said, "um, I can't wait to tell my parents any longer. I will be around them all day tomorrow and then we will see your parents too....I can't keep this a secret...lunch was awful!" So we packed up Luke and headed straight to our parents house.