Just so tired....

I am just to the point of exhaustion most days. Just worn out and tired. It's hard to really do much around the house anymore. I'm just soooo tired of being sooooo tired. I can't sleep well at night, Brandon has officially moved from our bed to the couch, just so he can get a decent nights rest, and I can well, not worry about waking him up with every move I make. I probably am getting up at least 3 times a night to go to the bathroom, and my hips are hurting from sleeping only on my sides. I'm just so done. I am wanting so bad to enjoy this time, especially since we are now officially under the 5 week mark, but I just want to feel half way normal. I know that when this baby comes, I will be getting up to take care of him in the middle of the night too, but at least I will get to see my sweet baby's face instead of the toilet. That's a lot more rewarding! heehee.

I know it sounds like I am complaining, and to my husband I apologize for that, because I have done it a lot lately. But waiting for baby number 2 to make his debut is so much different than waiting for baby number 1 to make his. We know what to expect this time around, we know what middle of the night feedings entail, we know about the diaper changes, the laundry, and the new sweet baby smell. We cannot wait to finally have him HERE with us....enjoying him for all he is, and watching our first born interact with his brother. As much as I know he is safe and sound inside of me right now, feeling his sweet movements, and having him all to myself, I am soooo ready for the next phase.

34 week appt

I had my 34 week appointment today...and everything is looking great. I had been having some pretty intense contractions this week. Sunday evening I had them about every 7-9 minutes for about an hour and half, but they ended up slowing down, so I didn't put a call into my doctor. But today when I told her about them, she wanted to do our first internal exam as well as a Fetal Fibronectin Test.

I am not dialated and the cervix looks good. So that is great news. And the results of the FFN test came back negative. So that means more than likely this little peanut will not be here within the next 2 weeks. (she said that test is about 98% accurate). Which is good because in 2 weeks, I won't quite be 36 weeks yet, so it makes me feel better to know he won't be here before then, and more than likely won't have a NICU stay. I have been so worried this time around, especially with Luke coming at 36 weeks and having as many contractions as early as I have, that he would be here, like, NOW. But God is good and I know he is ultimately in control of this situation. Just as He had His hand in Luke's birth.

So we are still playing the waiting game. And we are getting very eager to hold this new little man in our arms very soon.

why oh why

Why is it so hard to name this baby??? We have exactly 7 weeks from today until this peanut will be here.....and we can't just settle on a name. We have one. And it's more than likely the one we will probably use, but it's just still so hard to call him that. But we also have a couple more we like, but can't settle on middle names for them. I don't know why I am stressing out about this. I know he will have a name. He has to. We can't just call him baby forever. Well, I guess we could if he would have been a girl, there was that girl in Dirty Dancing that everyone called Baby, right??

I don't know. It's like I don't feel as connected to this peanut as much as I did with Luke. Not because I don't love him or anything. I just don't know...it's weird. I guess Luke just takes up too much of my time, thoughts, and energy, that this poor little man only gets the leftovers. And at this point, there really is much leftover.

I am so ready for him to be here. 7 weeks seems like a really long time. But I know it's really not. Because he could even be here before then....which sounds crazy. Which is probably why I am stressing so much about his name.

I'm sorry peanut. We love you. I promise you will have a name. And it will suit you. It just may not happen until the day we meet you.

29 weeks!

Well, I have made it to 29 weeks. Feels good to know that in exactly 10 weeks from today we will definetly have met this little man. I am feeling good, except for a few feelings of a bruised belly from this kid kicking me so hard from the inside. I swear he drags his entire heel across the length of my entire belly. Luke never ever kicked as hard as this one does, and I always felt him more up in my ribs, where this one I sometimes feel there, but it's usually always on the my far right side of my belly almost all the way towards my back. It's crazy how far back I can feel him move. My belly button is pretty much gone....and I really don't know if it will ever come back again. It is so stretched that it's hard to believe that this belly is going to have to stretch even more in 10 weeks.

I have another doctor's appointment tomorrow. I like when you start having them closer together....it makes the time go by faster and you get to hear his heartbeat more often.

I'll let you all know how it goes!